This week, I acted like a massive asshole to one of my really good friends. In a fit of hunger and frustration, I acted like a jerk, and reacted in a hurtful manner rather than addressing my feelings directly with her. My friend is an incredible baker- like, should open a bakery kind of incredible… Read More I’m Sorry I’m Like This: Supporting Your Competitor
Peak week- the last week before you compete, during which time you try and optimize your appearance to hit a temporary “peak” on show day- is probably the most discussed, hated, and easy to fuck up piece of any contest prep. Glycogen depleting workouts, sodium manipulation, water loading and restricting, tilapia and asparagus for breakfast because… Read More Peak Week Part 1: Input
Happy four days out! Yesterday I had my last private posing lesson, and it finally feels like it’s coming together as a routine. I’ve been practicing in the mirror, taking iPhone recordings, pretending my husband and the cat are judges, and finally, my body is picking up the muscle memory to where I don’t have to think… Read More The Other Kind of Prep: The Ugly Side of Competing
Eight weeks, two days out. Things are getting serious now, folks. First, exciting news: I am officially sponsored for my first competition! I had dinner this week with an outrageously helpful and always in-the-know friend, and the owner of a lovely supplement company called Nutrilys DelMar. By the end of dinner, I had a belly full of… Read More The Old Standby: Using the KISS Method
Two days ago, I received an email at work, asking me to do a photo shoot two days from then. Yes, today. Without hesitation, I replied with an emphatic, “Yes of course!” Screw the fact that I’m almost 6 weeks into a bulk, screw the fact that I can’t see my bottom abs, screw the… Read More Growing Your Perspective, Objectively
This week has been AWESOME in the gym! I’m still eating at a slight surplus, averaging about 1700 calories daily, though not exactly, being as I cycle my calories depending on my activity level for the day, and hitting PRs in the gym daily. This week, I PRed last week’s military press PR, even! Last… Read More Backhanded Compliments and Body Shaming
Two weeks ago today, Coach looked at me and said “You’re too damn skinny. If I have you cut any in the next 14 weeks you’ll be the smallest girl on stage. You shred fast, so let’s use that to our advantage and give you a few weeks of building.” I’m now charged with building… Read More I love calories, calories are my favorite!