This week, I acted like a massive asshole to one of my really good friends. In a fit of hunger and frustration, I acted like a jerk, and reacted in a hurtful manner rather than addressing my feelings directly with her. My friend is an incredible baker- like, should open a bakery kind of incredible… Read More I’m Sorry I’m Like This: Supporting Your Competitor
Peak week- the last week before you compete, during which time you try and optimize your appearance to hit a temporary “peak” on show day- is probably the most discussed, hated, and easy to fuck up piece of any contest prep. Glycogen depleting workouts, sodium manipulation, water loading and restricting, tilapia and asparagus for breakfast because… Read More Peak Week Part 1: Input
Yes yes, it’s Tuesday now, and show day was Saturday, and I’ve left you hanging… unless you’ve been on my Facebook or Instagram feeds, then you know what all went down! But I’ll break it all down in excruciating detail for you now that I’ve had some rest- I was just exhausted after the show- I… Read More This is What It’s All Been For: The Morning Show
One day out. Yesterday I woke up SKINNY. It was awful and I hated it, and it immediately made me grumpy. Yes, I could see my abs through my shirt, but at what cost, jeez! I couldn’t believe what my scale told me. I looked like a penis, just skin and veins and unattractive, gross.… Read More The TMI Lead-Up: One Day Out in Graphic Detail
It’s Saturday. That means in exactly one week, I will walk out onto the stage, ready or not. I’m leaner than I’ve ever been- yesterday I started seeing veins in my abs and in my thighs- what?! I’m always vascular, but those ones took me off guard! This week has been quite the struggle.… Read More Heading Into Peak Week
Alright, things are getting super serious now. In just two short weeks, I will take the stage. I alternate between being confident and positive, congratulating myself on my hard work and results, and incredibly negative and anxious that I will look absolutely stupid and people will think “why is she on that stage at all,… Read More A Riddle: How is Prepping for a Competition Like Home Ownership?
I’m going to be honest- this week had been rough. So far, it’s been the roughest since I started preparing for this contest. Mentally, physically, emotionally, I’ve been pretty well wrecked. I’ve been stressed about deadlines for my masters thesis and work stuff and making sure I’m eating right and lifting hard and leaning out,… Read More Every Part of You is a Piece of the Whole; Listen
Well, things just got real. Yesterday, I booked my tan, ordered my posing suit, and began eating at what will hopefully be my lowest macros. Today, I finally feel like it’s ok to say I’m, as so many eloquent Instagram bikini competitors hashtag, “on prep.” Bring on the tea and Extra Dessert Delights, this… Read More What To Wear, and How Much and How Little of It
Five weeks out. Five pounds to lose. Zero problems with that. Well, I did it: I successfully made it through more than week without screwing with my macros, just like I’d promised! Even on days I was bloated or felt like I’d gone over on carbs (numbers were on, but body said it was… Read More Programming- My Switch from Power to Aesthetic
Today marks 8 weeks out. Here’s a couple more stats for you- I met with my coach for a formal check-in and measure today: (Important- remember that until just a few days ago, I was eating above my TDEE for nearly 7 weeks) Since my last check-in with measurements, I have significantly upped my calories,… Read More It’s Official- I’m an NPC Figure Competitor!