I’ve always been proud to tell people that I’m self-coached. Two elite powerlifting totals and a natural bodybuilding pro card felt like even greater accomplishments when I could add that little tidbit on the end. I did it, all by myself. The traiing, the nutrition, the accountability- those victories were mine, just mine.
What an arrogant asshole. … Read More Giving Up Control
Let me just start this by saying that I feel awesome. I’ve been away for a while, and I talked about that a bit in this post, so I won’t get back into it again, but I’m super glad to be back and feeling good. I’ll preface this post by stating that I am… Read More Tiny Little Hormones, Big Freaking Deals
Holy moly, did it feel good to get back on the platform after 18 whole months away. Just kidding. It was a complete and utter shitshow. From top to bottom, the worst meet of my life. Spoiler alert: Objectively, the meet seemed to have gone well. I earned my second elite lifting total, and then… Read More Meet Report: USPA Drug Tested Metroflex Classic 2018
Regardless of what competition I am getting ready for, or for which sport, about four weeks from the date, I start to have incredibly realistic and invasive dreams about the event, and in every single one of them, it’s going terribly, terribly wrong. This seems like a atrocious betrayal of my brain, in the weeks… Read More Pre-event Dreamscape
I’ve had a challenging year- not only as an athlete, but as a human. If you’re a regular reader, you’ve likely noticed- and been disappointed by- my irregular writing and intermittent social media presence in the past 12 months. During contest prep, I typically do more writing, more posting, more sharing, more how-to-ing, but this… Read More I’m Super Glad 2017 is Over
I spent the morning learning how to operate Final Cut Pro, experimenting with video editing, creating voiceovers, splicing together videos, adding titles and written commentary… though adding a background track underneath my speaking has thus far eluded me. Seriously. If anyone knows how to do that, hit me up, because my Google-fu was… Read More 2017 WNBF Worlds Prep- Now on Video!
I didn’t fall off the face of the Earth- I’m still here! After months and months of brushing it off when people have suggested I start a YouTube channel, I gave it a try today. It’s nothing fancy- I have very few video editing skills, so, it’s just me talking. Like a spoken blog post,… Read More Today is NOT Show Day- The First SRS Vlog!
Preface This was admittedly one of the most difficult posts I’ve written to date. Much of it was written in my hotel room outside of Boston, two days prior to taking the stage for my pro figure debut, as I reflected on the preceding 22 weeks of contest prep. While some it may seem to… Read More Pro Show Shenanigans
This week, I acted like a massive asshole to one of my really good friends. In a fit of hunger and frustration, I acted like a jerk, and reacted in a hurtful manner rather than addressing my feelings directly with her. My friend is an incredible baker- like, should open a bakery kind of incredible… Read More I’m Sorry I’m Like This: Supporting Your Competitor
Heading into my third consecutive bodybuilding season, and my third season coaching myself through the process, I found myself reflecting a bit on what it is I’ve learned. From the very beginning, from the day I registered for my first show, I’ve used this space to keep track of, make sense of, and share my… Read More How to be an Unsuccessful Athlete